Jealous people make me LoL

So sitting here minding my own buisness i recieve a text message from a guy who doesn't like me saying I should leave his girlfriend alone. When all I do is try to help her when she needs it. But this leads me to my main point, Boyfriends should be more secure with their relationships. I had no intentions of stealing her away, just talking to her. But jeez, not like im this gorgeous, sexy, stud of a guy. I'm just me, I make my intentions clear and keep it that way. But this is stupid, when i got mad at that I went up stairs to my room and played some halo reach. Which fighting people and blowing stuff up makes me happy. So now im curious as to what others do to make them happy. Music? friends? Tacos? idk, just comment on what makes you happy or a reaction to this (i honestly don't feel the need to do a full 300 blog...)

Music.

Music is my life. My ipod is always on me and running some kind of music that has deep base, roars of the singers, screaming of the guitars, or the blasting of the bass drums. Music is one of the few things that have kept me sane. And to all of you who think music is uterlly pointless then bite me. Its a million, maybe even billion of dollar industry. Music is another thing I use to focus, because if some kid is sitting behind me meowing or doing some other disturbing/annoying thing. I just put my headphones in, click the play button, and turn it up just loud enough i can't hear him. But the problem with music in the class room is it is said that kids space off with it. Which has some truth to it. On long car rides i put my music in, hood up, and space off till somethign interesting happens. Music also has this magic ability to make me forget whatever ails me from whatever circumstance that was bothering me and im back to being happy. Or at least as happy as Sam Fullerton can get. Right now im listening to music and thats whats keeping me going and flowwing. The music is a genre called Dubstep and Technical Brutal Death Metal. I swear. Music is what i sleep too, what i wake too, what i wait for, what i yearn for. Its probably my one true addiction. I can could quit video games, i could quit World of Warcraft, DnD, and even wemon. BUT NEVER MUSIC

Depression

When the only thing that makes you happy and actually raises you from the pits of despair and sorrow is a single person. Of course all you want to do is waste away the hours talking to that person.  But the problem for me is I barely can talk to them due to the phone plan they are on and their schedule. There are days where im completely ok with not talking to her, but thats usually when Im not feeling depressed. But as you can guess when I do feel depressed I over think things. I fear she hates me, ignores me, doesn't want anything to do with me, etc. My mind races to the point where I have thrown myself into a vicious circle of depression. Worrying is one of the things i do the best at, because i've been doing it since i was a small child. Wondering what my father had been up to while he was gone and while he was gone for D.M.O.R.T. The girl is a very important girl, becuase if she wasn't why would i be caysing myself so much trama and pain. I put myself threw this all and yet I come off with a smile on my face everyday. It bothers me so much that everyone can have their days where their pissed off or depressed and we give them space but yet when i get pissed off or depressed everyone is like, SAM STOP BEING SO SAD!!!! I grow tired of that, and one day i can see myself just walking away so I have my privacy. As im writing this my friend says good night and sweatdreams to me. My only responce to her is "Sweatdreams mean nothing to me anymore. Not after what hell i've been threw in the past couple months"