Random Series of Events from my mind

If you have talked to me in the past 20 minutes you have probably heard about the series of jokes I have made about the law of physics. BAsically this is another spree of jokes i have concocteded for my own amusements. Random Person: "Have you seen sam?" Random Friend: "Yeah hes studying the laws of physics" Soon after that statement their was a ripple threw the air. Random Freind: "I Think Sam just broke the laws of physics" the both of them saw me, arms crossed, legs folded, evitating sideways threw the mid-air laughing at the physics which have just been broken. Later more people see me in the hallways towards the ceiling resting at a 45 degree angle against an invisible wall pouring pop into a glass which is upside down and the pop holds itself inside the glass untill i hold it to my lips. This is just what I come up with when I'm bored. Back in middle school me and my friends came up with the idea of this Wal Mart. Now understand that this place is the Wal Mart of Hell. Guns and knives being sold to minors, gangs, mythical creatures, the works :D Now some key details about the Wal Mart. Their are cameras everywhere, when you walk in there are old school propaganda posters saying "were listening" that was mainly our security and self-defense operator Collin Gumps job. The cameras are armed with small carbine sized ammo, rifles. The greaters at this particular wal mart are armed with weapons like clubs, PVC pipes and small handguns. We have the lockness monster residing inside our Seafood section. The weapons department is run by myself which is camoflgaued and booby trapped. The biggest weapon inside that area is a 200mm artillary gun. Stores regularly housed regular people with regular products but this places was a death trap. Armed guards up in the rafters. If you stole, you were asking to die right there. The original idea was to create and enviornment which its perfectly acceptable to kill another human being free of consequences. So we encourperated a sign that says "if you can make it out the door with the pproduct its free"

What Im sick of

What im honestly sick of is numerous things but Im gonna take right now to label a few things that i take time out of my day to think about how much i detest them. #1 watching people make out in the hallways. I mean seriously are some people so insecure about their relationships that they have to make out in the hallways for he world to see. Or do they just lack the old magically ability to controll their impulses, seriously. I know Mr. Dykstra despises it and so do nuymerous people around the school. I gag everytime i see it. #2 Parents who just can't let things go and accept my word as truth. I work and work and yet they still don't believe me that Im making an effort in doing my school work and getting caught up. Dad shut off my phone so I'm really angry about that so I'm going right now without a cellphone which bugs the crap out of me, because i feel so disconnected from everyone. Im also tired of sitting on facebook just to talk to people without having to call them because numerous of my friends really dont like talking on the phone. #3 The lack of shows in this town. The only peace i get from crappy hip-hop and "modern" music is the Shows at the Rosebowl. And those are only like every 3-6 months which is annoying as hell. Good news is i get to see lots of people i love :) wrote this in 7 minutes flat WIN

Dreaming

Dreaming. A glorious thing where one can escape the harsh reality into a world of make-believe where the false is true. A world where a man can become a knight and slay a dragon for a princess. A world where the weak are strong and courageous. A world where the stupid are the intellegent. But the world of slumber isn't always the greatest and happiness, sometime this world draws out your darkest thoughts and makes them seem almost, real. I have had my darkest nightmares seem almost real. A night forced with my ex who judges my every move, where she mocked me at every failure that night. The night droned on until bed, she asked me to sleep in the bed so at least she felt safe. She sprung up the conversation about her current boyfriend and how he was so much better then me. The next thing i know I'm standing over her with a fully loaded revolver. She apologised and i walked to the front door and blew out the lock and walked into the snow and sat there. But not all my dreams are harsh and unforgiving. Another dream I had was i was sitting on a hill very high above a city. Away from all the cars, the factories, and all the people. I was sitting in silence, it was raining but soon i looked to my left and my friend Tony was there. He was laid back and casual, as was his norm. Soon my closest friends were all around me and we sat in silence and enjoyed each others company. In closing I have but one thing to say. Dreams are gate ways to your sub-concious, where your most inner thoughts thrive. So dreams hold some merit to your life, dont shy away from them

Dreams.

I had a dream thursday/friday morning. This dream made me so happy to the point where nothing could bring me down. The dream was I was hanging out with my friend Kory Eastvold and we were playing Halo Reach. My mom called me saying I needed to come home. She neglected to mention that my first love Mariah Knutson was there. (which if any girl shows up at my house my mom would call me instantly) but when i came home my mother was sitting along with Mariah. Kory and I little didn't say anything we were just in shock. He asked if he needed to stay and i said no, because she seemed happy to see me. As she walked up to my and took my hand we walked into my living room. She held my hands and kissed me, which made me smile. I then sat down on the couch next to her and we played more Halo Reach. I smiled as we played and spent time with each other. She stood up and walked over to my tv. She jumped in suprise as i wrapped my arms around her and kissed her neck. We smiled and held each other...

The power of dreams are amazing. They show a bit about you, sometimes things you didn't know or things you didn't wanna know. This dream showed me that she still means something. Dreams can be windows into your subconcious or to your imagination. Sometimes they can outlets for stress or dispair. Mine was neither

Jealous people make me LoL

So sitting here minding my own buisness i recieve a text message from a guy who doesn't like me saying I should leave his girlfriend alone. When all I do is try to help her when she needs it. But this leads me to my main point, Boyfriends should be more secure with their relationships. I had no intentions of stealing her away, just talking to her. But jeez, not like im this gorgeous, sexy, stud of a guy. I'm just me, I make my intentions clear and keep it that way. But this is stupid, when i got mad at that I went up stairs to my room and played some halo reach. Which fighting people and blowing stuff up makes me happy. So now im curious as to what others do to make them happy. Music? friends? Tacos? idk, just comment on what makes you happy or a reaction to this (i honestly don't feel the need to do a full 300 blog...)

Music.

Music is my life. My ipod is always on me and running some kind of music that has deep base, roars of the singers, screaming of the guitars, or the blasting of the bass drums. Music is one of the few things that have kept me sane. And to all of you who think music is uterlly pointless then bite me. Its a million, maybe even billion of dollar industry. Music is another thing I use to focus, because if some kid is sitting behind me meowing or doing some other disturbing/annoying thing. I just put my headphones in, click the play button, and turn it up just loud enough i can't hear him. But the problem with music in the class room is it is said that kids space off with it. Which has some truth to it. On long car rides i put my music in, hood up, and space off till somethign interesting happens. Music also has this magic ability to make me forget whatever ails me from whatever circumstance that was bothering me and im back to being happy. Or at least as happy as Sam Fullerton can get. Right now im listening to music and thats whats keeping me going and flowwing. The music is a genre called Dubstep and Technical Brutal Death Metal. I swear. Music is what i sleep too, what i wake too, what i wait for, what i yearn for. Its probably my one true addiction. I can could quit video games, i could quit World of Warcraft, DnD, and even wemon. BUT NEVER MUSIC

Depression

When the only thing that makes you happy and actually raises you from the pits of despair and sorrow is a single person. Of course all you want to do is waste away the hours talking to that person.  But the problem for me is I barely can talk to them due to the phone plan they are on and their schedule. There are days where im completely ok with not talking to her, but thats usually when Im not feeling depressed. But as you can guess when I do feel depressed I over think things. I fear she hates me, ignores me, doesn't want anything to do with me, etc. My mind races to the point where I have thrown myself into a vicious circle of depression. Worrying is one of the things i do the best at, because i've been doing it since i was a small child. Wondering what my father had been up to while he was gone and while he was gone for D.M.O.R.T. The girl is a very important girl, becuase if she wasn't why would i be caysing myself so much trama and pain. I put myself threw this all and yet I come off with a smile on my face everyday. It bothers me so much that everyone can have their days where their pissed off or depressed and we give them space but yet when i get pissed off or depressed everyone is like, SAM STOP BEING SO SAD!!!! I grow tired of that, and one day i can see myself just walking away so I have my privacy. As im writing this my friend says good night and sweatdreams to me. My only responce to her is "Sweatdreams mean nothing to me anymore. Not after what hell i've been threw in the past couple months"

D&D.

Dungeons and dragons. Its a game that has been around since the 80's. It has been rediculed, chastised, mocked, and had its true intentions brought to question. A tv minister honestly believes this game was designed, and being used by the devil to corrupt teenagers and children into doing his dark work. He believes that because in the game there are demons and beasts. The game is truly, by design, to let people escape into a world of fantasy and magic. The version I run is: D20 Modern, Apocolaypse. A verison made to incorporiate modern aspects to a very old game. My players and I have become so invovled in the game we can look at our watches, cellphones, Ipods and it'll be 12:31. Next moment when we check again its 4:41. Time flys as we destroy fallen humans, undead, magical feral beasts, and cultists of evil intention. This game is more then just a game, its an escape, a way of life. I play D20 Modern Apocolaypse where I am the mind behind Ghost. A strong, ice spear weilding, 700 year old human. He is strong minded and serves his master The Raven Queen. The Raven Queen is a goddess in mortal form and so is her eternal servant Ghost. They both need a gem called "The Ravens Heart" to asend back into immortailty and defeast the god of the undead Orcus. The other character is run is Kelshan, a sneaky sly Tiefling Rogue

He has run threw dark dungeons carrying swords, crossbows, and daggers. Hes assassinated numerous of his foes. Just looking at him inspires fear from the enemy as he is very intimiadting. Kelshan is a very stealthy rogue and moves threw the shadows as if he was made of them. Dungeons and Dragons is what has kept me sane threw insanity. The game is not just a game for me, its an escape.
~The mind behind Kelshan and Ghost~

My style

I may be the weird kid. The "goth" kid but truly im just like everyone else. I may wear pants that have metal and chains on them. I may wear skinny jeans. I may wear band t-shirts depicting horrable fiends that could only have been spawned from an insane man's mind. But truly Im like anyone else. I have my wants, my fears, my hopes, my dreams, my habits, my addictions. Im truly just like everyone else. But some people don't feel like Im just another human being. They think im some freak, an abomination, a mutant. They judge my appearance not my personality. They think Im this heartless person that will devourer their soul if they say one word to me. Thats false, as long as the person has not wronged me or my friends in any way I will listen to anything they have to say. But if you've wronged me, save you breath, for your words fall on deaf ears.
~The Mind and Voice Behind Ghost and Kelshan

Love, girls, and the cost of happyness

Happyness is something that people think they have. But honestly they just believe it cause they want too. If you crack open the mind of any person who thinks their in a happy loving relationship, I bet you'd find a crawling beast of uncertanty, fear, and the feeling of sorrow. People associate Happyness with Love but in my opinion those two are far apart. I love my ex for example her name is Mariah, if I was with her i'd probably be happy but not now. There is another girl named (whos name i cant give out) she hates me with a fiery passion, but doesn't show it in public. I stood amung mutual friends of ours and we all talked I believe she took a couple shots at me but I didn't care really. Just being around those i like makes me happy. But I know there is not future with her because i believe she won't change her mind about me and that is my fault.
~The voice and mind behind Ghost and Kelshan~